so, b/c i dont really have a means to vent or someone to vent to right now... i'm going to use xanga as my outlet. i'm extremely stressed out right now. i have a lot on my plate and even though i know i could use my spare time more wisely... i feel overwhelmed. and i'm sure that that has something to do with the fact that i'm kind of frustrated with my roommate, but i might just be taking it out on her. anyway, she's been really quiet and stand-off-ish all day and whatever, i dont let it bug me. well, up until now that is. maybe she's mad that i took a long time in the shower this morning... but i only did that b/c she was in the bathroom this morning for half an hour talking on the phone. she mightve been doing that out of respect for me, but i wasn't going to be the one to ask her to get out. who knew whether or not she was on the toilet talking to someone. and during that time, i was awake and ready to get ready for the day. So, she shouldnt be pissed off b/c i've had to deal with a lot worse with her and the bathroom and other things. i dont know if she's just having a hard time today or something.. but it's really bugging me that she's being rude to me. i do SO many things to be considerate of her. so many times i want to or need to use the computer AFTER she goes to sleep, but i dont b/c i know my computer is right by her bed so the typing would probably bother her. so i just suck it up and do whatever i need to do the next day. i went almost a whole WEEK without being able to sleep b/c she snored the whole night and it would get progressively louder. but, i never complained to her about it b/c i know she cant really do anything about it. and i've been nothing but supportive with her when it comes to academics ... but she seems to harp on every "bad" thing i do, whether it be sleeping in or skipping a class. i guess i'm just fed up with it at this point. i AM a good roommate darn it. and if she can't see that, then i wouldnt mind living with someone else so that she can see that not everyone would be as considerate as me! anyway... i miss leo dearly. i wish he were home and i could call him instead of type on xanga. someone... PLEASE give me more time this week... especially before tuesday of next week! things happen for a reason. "Like Jesus, we belong to this world living not for ourselves, but for others." -- Blessed Mother Teresa |